Looking back on that night on the 20th May 2017 my life really did change forever, I met someone who grabbed my attention like no one had before. I didn’t even look at men or have any interest in them I wanted my dream man my forever and that was it. When I met him I didn’t just go “That’s him!’ I actually didn’t know what to make of him. He was so different to everything I’d pictured I think once again I went into shock mode. It took me a good few weeks to get to know him before it all started clicking and I remembered what I said to my lovely tattooist the day before when getting my white butterfly tattoo ‘Wouldn’t it be so funny if I met my husband tomorrow now!’ Good one Universe!
From the beginning I really felt like The Universe was testing us, I was freaking out like mad but having such vivid dreams of Angels telling me to contact him again and persist. Our phones wouldn’t send texts to each other, I mean it wasn’t even a Mercury Retrograde! Starting our relationship had its issues but with any twin flame union, you have to address and face all your fears. It’s almost like a big test from The Universe like ‘Right Emma, all your fears and lessons you’ve learnt in the past let’s see if you’ve passed the test’. I’ve had to face emotions I never wanted to again, but now I realise all of this is simply what happens so that you can both live in peace together. No matter what got thrown at us we faced these issues and for once in my life, I felt happy, calm and at a peace with him by my side.
We grew close very quickly and the good old husband conversation came up, clearly he wasn’t freaked out by any of what I do phew! I wanted someone to just get what I do and support me, but I never considered that he could do this and be non-spiritual. It made me realise that maybe The Universe did know best and that Emma didn’t need to be right all the time because I was even happier than I could have imagined. Finding someone who is a mirror of you is so special because it’s easy we love the same things, we never really argue, and we just get it. That’s what I love about our relationship how he just gets me and all I do.
Travelling the world and getting to make memories together has been simply amazing this year. I’ve never felt so accepted, loved and fulfilled. I used to get upset about my idea of perfection and how certain parts of our relationship haven’t been the Disney fairytale I always pictured. But is it ever really that perfect in real life? I’m sure many of you look at what we’ve done together and see that as perfection. I just couldn’t see it myself or feel gratitude until now. The way he kisses me, holds my hand, supports me, looks at me I could never see it myself only you guys can. So because I couldn’t see it I felt like it wasn’t there. Our relationship has shown me how to give up perfection and realise that sometimes The Universe brings us even better things than we could have asked for.
So why hasn’t he been on my YouTube channel? Simply because as he has no social media stepping into my world is daunting and not what he’s used to at all. We post pictures, well do all the normal things couples do with social media we just keep it private. I know naturally you all will take an interest because of how invested you are in my journey which is incredible. I also want to share what I feel comfortable with and being able to have one part of my life, the most important, private and just between us feels right. I’m not saying never but he needs to feel comfortable and want to do it.
With Christmas only a few days away now, I’m truly looking forward to spending it with him. My life has changed so much in one year, let alone the seven months we’ve been together. He’s taught me that the right one will make you face your fears to show that you can overcome them, that support doesn’t have to be how I pictured things and the same with love. But most importantly that perfection doesn’t really exist, we base our dreams on fairytales which hell we should! But be open to your fairytale not being exactly how you planned because remember The Universe is the greatest author of them all and sometimes a curveball can be the greatest love and storyline of them all.
Thank you for reading this blog post, I hope it has let you in a little further into our lives. I hope it has also shown you that we shouldn’t beat ourselves up about perfection with the one. I hope you all have a very Merry Christmas and remember to count your blessings this festive season. Lots of Love xx