I honestly don’t even know where to start with 2016, let’s face it it’s been tough and wonderful at the same time for all of us. This has been the most transformational year of my life, and to think where I was last year scares me. It scares me to think just how different my life is now, and how much I was depriving myself of last year.
April was certainly a big test from the Universe, I asked for help to get out of the awful situation I had found myself in of depression, unhappiness and darkness and boy did I get that help. How could someone so blessed be suicidal you ask? Well, I asked myself the same question and honestly looking back I can see it was because I was lying to myself about who I was, what I wanted in life and what I deserved. I settled for a very bleak life with no opportunity or real love. Negativity and bitterness surrounded me and that’s what I became, something I’m certainly not proud of. I am so glad all of it happened though, because without this pain I wouldn’t have gained the abundance and love that surrounds me now.
“If life can remove someone you never dreamt of losing, it can replace them with someone you never dreamt of having”.
Rebuilding My Life
So through my life falling apart, I certainly found myself and rebuilt an incredible life. One with love, positivity, honesty surrounding me and full of inspirational people who would build me up not tear me down. I feel from my birthday in August, things really took off. In came the Law of Attraction and a whole new purpose of life for me, I felt my calling in life and that I could not only help people save money but transform their lives through positivity also. My Etsy store was born and that’s when the abundance starting flowing in. I became debt free, I finally had self-love, and for once in my life I was surrounded by friends and family who truly loved and supported me no matter what.
Finding My Passion Once Again
Once I had found myself the new and improved Emma was born. I finally felt that I was myself and I really feel this came across in my Youtube videos and appearances. In came This Morning in September, something I had dreamt of for many years and I still pinch myself sometimes that I have a regular spot and feel so accepted and loved by the team who are incredible by the way! I started to find passion in everything once again, my couponing page, my blog, my Youtube absolutely everything. I started to enjoy life more and realise that everything really does happen for a reason, and by removing a massive block in my life which wasn’t making me happy, suddenly everything made sense and I felt I was finally on the right path.
“No pain, No gain”
Meeting My Idol Tony Robbins
In October I achieved a massive manifestation once again and attended an event which would truly change my life (again). Tony Robbins is my biggest inspiration and to have the opportunity to be in the same room as him, let alone Tony pick me out of a whole room of people and work through my issues was an absolute blessing. In that moment I didn’t fear anymore, if I could get a 7ft man to pick me out of a crowd, emotionally help me unblock myself and get my hug why was I worrying about finding love? The real key was finding the self-love I had deprived myself of for years and living for myself for once not others.
“It is in your moments of decision that your destiny is shaped”. Tony Robbins
In December I finally went abroad for the first time in over ten years, it was an incredible experience and once again I realised nothing could hold me back anymore. The fears and excuses I had been creating for years meant nothing anymore and it was like they never even existed. Marrakech was the perfect end to 2016 and showed me just how far I’ve come this year and that I really can do anything.
Conquered My Fears
I’ve always been honest and documented my anxiety and depression which was a massive part of my life for four years. I find this hard to explain as some people just won’t understand it, but the day I woke up after using the law of attraction and for once in my life didn’t have a horrible knot in my stomach was the day that changed my life. I had simply visualised myself going on a plane, conquering all my fears and as if by magic my darkness that had haunted me for years just disappeared. I do honestly feel I had it because I wasn’t living a genuine life and was so unhappy. I am so proud to say that this year I have overcome and smashed every single fear I ever created.
Became Miss Independent
Being suddenly single and living by myself did haunt me for a while, and it’s probably been the hardest part of this year. Not only have I had to give myself financial stability, I’ve had to grow up and give myself everything I was seeking in a man. I always used to rely on a man to do everything with, I couldn’t do anything by myself. Now I’m Miss.Independent and have given myself happiness and fulfilment instead of looking externally to feel complete. I travel up to London by myself most weeks for work and enjoy having time to myself to self-develop and work on myself. Now there have been men that have manifested into my life, even one who was scaringly close to Mr Right. They just haven’t quite been right. Either way I’ve made some incredible new friends who have all given me unconditional love and acceptance.
Upped My Game
Since finding myself, my passion and living a truly limitless life, it’s only right I start planning ahead for 2017 and using the law of attraction I am certainly going for it all. I have made some big decisions behind the scenes this year and I will talk more about these in the New Year. Next year I’ve got some big surprises, plans and new things being launched so as great as 2016 has been for my career, 2017 will certainly top it! I also got the surprise of my life in December when HIBS 100 named my blog the #5 best Lifestyle blog in the UK of 2016! I couldn’t believe it and am so humbled to be on a list with such influential bloggers. This year I’ve also been in three books ‘The Ultimate Guide To Vloggers 2017 Edition‘, ‘The Million Dollar Blog‘ & ‘Blogging Your Way To Riches‘. Once again it was an absolute honour and surreal moment to be included in such incredible books which will help so many people achieve their dreams. One thing I’d also like to include is I never really felt like I had a community or a following of support, silly I know as there’s 350,000 of you now (pinch myself moment). I honestly feel since showing you all a more genuine side to myself and documenting my journey, I receive so much more genuine love and support from all of you. I am so grateful for all your kind comments, messages and even emails. Hearing how my advice has transformed your lives brings me the greatest joy.
Lessons Of 2016
So finally to what I’ve learnt this year well I think I could probably write a whole book on this really! But to keep it short and sweet. Life is too short to just suffer through life. Be unapologetically you, and no dream is too big. If I can turn couponing into a business you can do anything you put your mind to! Remove the negativity in your life and people that don’t serve your highest purpose anymore. We are constantly growing and learning and that’s okay, you don’t need to explain yourself to anyone. I think the biggest lesson I learnt this year was forgiveness, I trapped myself for so long by suffering. Once I learnt to cut myself free, forgive, and give myself the love I deserved EVERYTHING changed. I want to thank you all for reading my blog, watching my videos this year and for giving me love and support in even the most smallest of ways. I hope that 2017 is easier for us all and I wish you all a blessed, prosperious New Year full of love and abundance.
I can be changed by what happened to me, but I refuse to be reduced by it.